Let's not even get into Tulkinghorn basically saying "You're a slut and so I get to treat you how I want," because I'll get all ragepants about it.
|Life and Lady Dedlock|
Now. Chapters 43 and 44. Wtf.
Let's not really get into Mr Jarndyce's motives, because really he's just being incredibly kind here, especially given Esther's most recent revelation. She said she was going to live with Richard and Ada, but how well is THAT going to turn out? And once Ada is gone, Esther can't live with Mr. Jarndyce unless they're married. So it's the best option, really. He's a good guy. Let's not be creeped out. Also, I realized while reading it that I picture him in my head as the illustrated version of Doctor Dolittle.
|Yes. Like that.|
But Esther's RESPONSE. So we start chapter 43 with "It matters little now how much I thought of my living mother who had told me evermore to consider her dead." So. That's great. Then we get more of Esther being terrified all the time and thinking about how it would be better she had never been born. Then we get 44 with her telling Mr Jarndyce about her mother, followed by his proposal and her acceptance.
Esther knows what's going to happen. She knows Mr Jarndyce is going to propose. And before reading his letter, she sits herself down and walks herself through her entire life. How many times have YOU done that? Yeah. Probably zero. Zero times. So why does Esther do it?
By laying out how actually unhappy she was before going to the school Mr Jarndyce sent her to, and then meeting Ada through his means, and then living in his house where she's cared for, she is proving to herself how everything in her life that has made her happy has come from him. Does she want to marry him? No. She wants to marry Mr Woodcourt. But "submission, self-denial, diligent work." This scene CAN come off as Esther just being "too good" again, but it in fact borders once more on her almost having a breakdown.
As a sidenote, have you noticed she doesn't lament not having a father? Fathers are, in fact, portrayed as almost unnecessary in the world of Bleak House. I'm not saying that part of this book is an angry excoriation by Dickens of his own mother, but I'm not NOT saying that. For those unaware, when Dickens was a child, he had to go work in a blacking factory, which was basically the worst period of his life. When he thought he was done, his mother sent him back there. His mother failed him, as almost all the mothers fail their children in Bleak House.
But back to the breakdown. She shows herself that she should marry Mr Jarndyce, and says "I was very happy, very thankful, very hopeful; but I cried very much." She then continues her practice of mothering herself by telling her sobbing self "Oh, Esther, Esther, can that be you!" and HOLDS HER FINGER UP TO HER REFLECTION to stop herself crying. Then, like a psycho, says to her red-eyed self "In fact, you are always to be cheerful; so let us begin for once and for all."
|How Esther wants to be|
In other words, let's stuff all our feelings about this situation and how unhappy we really are, and go along with our childhood message that we need to constantly forget ourselves and there, you're happy now, yes? Happy happy happy, everything's happy. Esther needs MOUNTAINS of therapy, and instead she has her father figure proposing to her, which she is forcing herself to accept. This whole chapter is terrifying.
As for the rest, I'm not dealing with Jo. Nope. And:
Sir Leicester rises, adjusts her scarf about her, and returns to his seat.
I ship Sir Leicester with how much he loves Lady Dedlock. Also, LOOK AT WHERE THIS WEEK'S READING ENDED, because PLOT TWIIIIIIST.